breaks my heart

to see you wave and smile at me

as if nothing is wrong

you phone rings twice then goes to voicemail

i know how to ignore

i just want to let you know that i am sorry for 2 things

and 2 things only

i'm sorry i went to the mountains that night you worked

to smoke that herb with that strawberry blond boy

nothing happened but that's not the point and i understand

i'm again sorry for the night i let you walk all the way downtown

because i was too tired to drive you

and at the time

i was too tired to care

those nights haunt me and i wonder if those nights changed

would we have changed for the better,,,

i tell myself to be strong but it is a lot more work then i thought it'd be

you have a heart so big but no room for me

i want to change for you as you changed for me