catching back up

sometimes i get wrapped up in the most silliest subjects and focus on one part of my life that i forget that i am a person with multple situations going on... new friendships are blossoming and i feel good about this one, school is closing down on finals and the stress in building yet i am still finding time to write down daily nonsense while i should be on an oak desk with a brightly lit lamp is about me doing chapter reviews, writing biology papers, you know things of that nature

yet i am not

alright.. time to swing low

first thing is first...

i'm exhausted from day 2 of the week... school is so demanding but to keep on top of it is a whole another demand, but dont worry.. i got it

it was game 2 of the playoffs, which i followed the the sun and blazers from day one through my phone but the playoffs actually get watched, every game! so far the score is 1-1, in case you were dying to know!!

lately i've been alone, all alone. it doesnt bug me and i am not dying for companionship, however i'm not ruling anything out. and hell i could have someone if i wanted... but no one would be you and i want you and fuck.. i just can't have you... it's weird how things fall into place and sometimes everything is alright and the next day is even better but then there are times when you wait and want and your lap eventually gets a big pile of shit when it is all said and done.

i'm 21, well i'm 20 years, 11 months, 2 weeks and 3 days old. i feel as if i'm see the world differently then most people. i dont have this whole life things figured out, i dont think i'm suppose to but i know i get bored easily, i dont really like challenges but i enjoy risks...

hour has come for the tides of change

i can't think to hard about what i am going to write i must just write at all costs to get my mind working and in motion. my mind has been here and there lately and i can not seem to get a firm grasp on the reality around me. i am falling further away as the truth is even further and these damn subtle hints from you drive me crazy.... but this is it... this is right... how can it not be?

you know you get those feelings and when shit hits the roof and it is gone you take a moment to look back on the situation and then you have one of those brilliant AHA! moments, it is then when the light around you is brighter than ever, and you can see through the shame that it all just wasn't right... it just wasn't it..

well this isn't like that, this is different, this is it. for me anyways....


this month my color is purple... it's purple too.